I may look drunk, but I can assure you I am just merry. You'll notice that that bottle of wine is closer to full than empty. And it's still in the fridge.
Despite my title quote for me last blog entry, ‘Pain is temporary, quitting lasts forever’, I’ve decided that it’s time to quit. Or not so much quit but change. Some months ago I had 30 goals, mostly not made up by me, to complete prior to my 30th Birthday. I enjoyed it, it gave me a new lease on life… and then time passed and the tasks lost their meaning and the continued completing of them became tiresome and soul-destroying.
I was raised to believe that quitting is failing and failing is weak. Actually I’m not sure if my parents raised me that way, but that is what I firmly believed until the ripe old age of 21. When I was 21 I had a job I hated, living in a place I hated, and all I thought about doing every day was leaving. But I stayed, telling myself, ‘as soon as I’ve mastered this, I can leave.’ But one day, after a big fight with a big fat man (irrelevant? yes), I quit, the next day I left. 1 month later I was living in a place I loved, doing a job I loved. I never regret leaving, although I still harbour some resentment towards my sister (who indirectly was responsible for my predicament) and I never, so long as I live, wish to see Fitzroy River Lodge (or whatever it was called) again. Since then, if something’s not working for me, I quit. I am yet to regret it.
But, I don’t want to quit here, I just want to change a few things. Just so I can enjoy my 1 month and 1 week til 30 that little bit more. And, of course, complete all my 30 by 30 tasks – because I’d hate to fail.
So…. my amended list of 30 by 30 is;
Do my very best to win lotto. COMPLETE. I won nothing but I don’t care… that much.
2. Run a 10k race.
Cook a dinner for 20. COMPLETE.
Paint a picture and try to sell it. Failing that, write a book, poem, article, short story and try to get it published. COMPLETE.
Only get merry. Don’t get drunk AND most importantly never do an alcohol related spew. COMPLETE.
Change my hairstyle totally. Soon to be complete – the next blonding session is in the pipeline. And I’m sure everyone will actually notice a change afterwards.
Stop to help everyone who looks like they might need it. COMPLETE. If I keep having to do this I may never leave my room again.
Spend 20 minutes beautifying myself everyday for a month. COMPLETE. Some days I even spent 50minutes in the shower.
Stop hiding my true feelings and tell several people what I really think of them. COMPLETE.
Get pregnant and engaged. Can be same or different person. – I’m going to scrub this. Last night Laurie and I tried to make a baby and it was very disturbing for me. I’m fine if it happens of it’s own accord but I’m not sure either of us want me pregnant before I’m 30. And I have no current plans to make a proposal of marriage to anyone, ever. Call me old fashioned but I’d like to be proposed to. Considering it was actually Laurie that made this one up and Laurie who must make it happen, I don’t think that it’s fair that I should fail for something I never really wanted and am not in a position to make happen.
Go Skiing or Snowboarding once a week. COMPLETE
Visit Peru This isn’t going to happen pre 30. My time is all planned and this isn’t on the plan. I think I’ll change this to ‘visit the Grand Canyon via helicopter and drink champagne at the bottom of it‘ – which is on the plan, and is booked, for the morning of my birthday itself. Thanks Mumsy, love you x x x
13. Develop a winner’s outlook on life. – a very worthy goal 🙂
Start using an anti-aging product. COMPLETE
Be sure to tell at least one joke a week. I may be old, but I’m not dead yet. COMPLETE – this completes itself every week. I’m a frequent joke teller.
Take 1 photo every single day. Take 1 photo a week. At first I loved taking a photo a day, it showed me how lucky I was and what a good life I live…. but for the last month or so it’s been showing me how dull my life is and that there is nothing but the same old pictures to be taken, over and over. Stifling my creativity, every day having this picture taking task hanging over my head when I’ve already taken a picture of everything here, it’s not the life for me. I’m pretty sure I can handle 1 a week. Not to mention I’ve missed a few days recently so I’ll still be on track if it’s once a week.
Give up something for lent (40 days – 22nd Feb 2012 to 5th Apr 2012). Lent schment. I’ve always thought it was stupid to give up something for lent, why stop now. So, I gave up not giving something up for lent and now I’ve failed it. Maybe some day I’ll just give something up, and I won’t need lent to be the reason.
18. Visit Las Vegas – Hell yeah!!! So excited to be going in May! Can’t wait.
19. Blog my 30 by 30 achievements. – this has been good. I’ve learnt a lot about blogging. I’ve started reading two blogs regularly for inspiration;
Caroline Coxon’s http://crlncxn-quirkyworks.blogspot.ca/
– for me it’s kind of like a nice thought of the day, everyday, without the preachy mumbo jumbo of something that actually calls itself a thought of the day. It’s fun, and light, and let’s me know what is happening in Laurie’s mum’s life and is always very positive. I’ve even taken to finding quotes for my blog entries like Caroline does, although sometimes I just make them up myself, and I never actually credit any authors as Caroline does. I’ve also discovered that the quotes I find almost never say what I want them to, but are very good for thinking about topics, and having a discussion without any at all.
And the second is http://arlynnpresser.wordpress.com/
. It’s by a 50 something who was/is afraid to leave her home, and last year she decided to meet (face to face) all her facebook friends around the world, and blog about it. I like it a lot. I’ve never read blogs before this year so it’s been very enjoyable to see how they work.
Get my 30 a day of exercise (also known as ‘sit on my arse for less than 23.5 hours a day’). This is not cumulative. I’ve taken this a little too literally, as in – as long as I get out of a chair/bed for 30 minutes every day, I’m a winner. Kinda pointless, don’t need any goal to help me do that.
21. Discover 1 new album per month.
22. Spend 2 weeks as each of the following;
Pescetarian, Vegetarian, Vegan and Rawist.
Try 2 new foods every month. Another goal which happens easily of it’s own accord. And why do I need to do this pre 30????? Will I only be able to eat foods previously tried… I think not.
Start learning a new language (2hrs per weeks for 3 months). I watched a couple of French movies, and then my free Netflix subscription expired. Regardless, I’ve not learnt any new French. It’s a shame and I guess this is a goal I have genuinely failed and I’m a little sad about it.
25. Spend maximum of $30 per month on clothes, shoes & accessories. – On track, in fact I’ve still got my $30 from this month.
26. Go to 1 live concert, theatre or comedy show per month.
Drink alcohol at least twice a month. Complete
Read the karma sutra and put at least 2 moves into practice. Who was I kidding? I’m not going to do this. To be honest, I’m still working on mastering missionary so I’m in no need of trying to master something new when I’ve not got the basics.
29. Talk to and relate to a young person every month (no one likes an out of touch 30 something).
30. Decide what I want to do with the next 10 years of my life.
So, I guess that leaves me with 13 very achievable goals to complete in the next 1 month and 1 week. I’m excited!!!! Again.